Find Your Wings

When I graduated high school this song was very popular. At our graduation recognition at church a friend's dad sang this song while they played a slideshow of all of our pictures growing up. When I heard it I thought it was a sweet song and I liked it and went on about my way not thinking much about it.

Greyson had been sleeping so well! Then we moved and things just got crazy to say the least and his sleeping just wasn't like it had been. He wakes up between 2:30 and 3 every.single.morning. He wants to be held and then goes back to sleep but doesn't like being put back down in his crib. He's my cuddle bug for sure. 

Last night he was NOT having going back to sleep. So we were up until about 5:30 this morning. I had class at 8:30 and it was raining. Needless to say, I was not in a good mood. 

Music is my therapy. I get in my car, crank up my radio and drive to school for my class (not to mention it was presentations today, too). 

This song comes on the radio and I think, "Oh, I haven't heard this one in awhile." The first line, the very first line, I instantly felt this guilt come over me of how frustrated I had been in the wee hours earlier. ("It's only for a moment you are mine to hold." Tell me you wouldn't feel instant guilt.) I listen to the words and now I completely understand why this song was written. As a gentle reminder about how long the days and nights can be, but how short and quick the years will go by. (Thanks for wise words mom and Josie!)

It is also a gentle reminder of how thankful I should be that God has entrusted Greyson with John Thomas and me. We have two different sets of friends right now that are struggling with infertility. We have another set of friends who have been pregnant in the past and have lost their baby (and now have two wonderful and beautiful girls!!). I never have not been thankful for Greyson, I hope nobody would ever think that, but that doesn't mean I don't have my moments of frustration. I just need sleep and can become easily frustrated, like majority people. Thank you God for your sweet reminder this morning. 

It's only for a moment you are mine to hold 

The plans that heaven has for you

Will all too soon unfold 

So many different prayers I'll pray

For all that you might do 

But most of all I'll want to know 

You're walking in the truth 

And If I never told you 

I want you to know

As I watch you grow

Chorus:

I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams

And that faith gives you the courage

To dare to do great things

I'm here for you whatever this life brings

So let my love give you roots

And help you find your wings 

May passion be the wind 

That leads you through your days 

And may conviction keep you strong

Guide you on your way 

May there be many moments

That make your life so sweet 

Oh, but more than memories

Chorus:

It's not living if you don't reach for the sky 

I'll have tears as you take off 

But I'll cheer as you fly 

Four Months!

Greyman, you are four months already! (and two days, I'm a little behind) I can't believe how fast you are growing and learning.  I love watching every second of it! You are my heart and soul little boy! Your daddy and I love you so much!

Weight:

You were 15.3 pounds this morning at the doctor!

 Height:

You are 25 1/2 inches long! I knew you hit a growth spurt this month!

Clothing Size:

Six month onesies are your best fit. If you keep growing we will be bumping you up to 9 month pajamas before long! I can get away with some 9 months everyday clothes- they are mostly your nicer outfits that seem to run a little bit smaller.

Diapers:

  You're in size 2's still!  I don't have too many left and will probably go ahead and buy a size 3 next mainly because I buy the big boxes at Sams and I don't think you will make it through that many more size 2's!

Feeding:

You're eating all formula now! I went back to work, we moved, your daddy had surgery, and you really love to eat and I couldn't keep my milk supply trying to balance all of the above. You had breastmilk for a good three and half months so I am happy with that!

You eat five times a day- 4 bottles are 6 ounces and your bedtime bottle is 8 ounces. No solid food yet! Your doctor and I talked about it this morning- we may start some cereal in the next month but I am not going to rush it!

Hair/Eyes:

Your hair is almost all blonde! You have a lot of it but it is becoming more hard to see. The back around your mullet area is still dark, but not near as dark as it was when you were born. 

Your eyes are a gorgeous blue! Some of the things you wear make them really pop and they are crystal looking almost! The doctor said she wouldn't be surprised if you stayed a blue eyed boy!

Sleep:

You are sleeping okay. You are having to adjust to me and your daddy being in the same room (which is also an adjustment for me not being able to sleep with the tv on!). You go down around 8 or 8:30 and sleep until 3 (almost on the dot every night), want to be held for a few minutes and then back asleep until about 6 or 6:30. I am going to try and let you start soothing yourself to sleep in your middle of the night waking. 

You have not been swaddled for about two weeks now. You are rolling all over the place and it would scare you so I took you out. You sleep with your elephant mink and pacifier. When I put you down you go down on your back...within five or ten minutes you are turned around and on your belly. You move all throughout the night. The other morning I woke up and your feet were hanging out the slats of the crib. It was funny. 

Fun Stuff:

-You love talking!  You will talk and talk and talk...I have NO idea where you get this from! Haha!

-You LOVE Mickey Mouse Clubhouse! I think it is the bright colors and all the music. You will lay there and kick your feet the entire time it is on. When I sing their opening song to you, you always smile. You really like when your Mimi sings The Hot Dog song to you from the show, too!

- You are starting to really notice toys.  When we put something in front of you, you grab at it (and sometimes you can actually grab it!). Earlier I put the bottle in front of you to see what you would do and you moved your mouth for it and tried to eat. Mean of me but it was cute.

-You can stand up on your own when standing in my lap! You are SO strong!!

-You have great head control! I let you sit in your Bumbo a few minutes each day to help you build your core. I think you will be sitting up very soon!

-You get so tickled at some sounds...like kissing, blowing raspberries, etc.

-You are drooling all over the place. Your gums are just a little bit swollen, but no teeth yet.

-I can't decide if you prefer to be on your tummy or your back. You sleep on your tummy but when I put you on your tummy and you aren't sleeping then you are easily aggravated.

-You have two fingers that you suck on! You will shove them down your throat until you gag yourself and then look at me like it is my fault. It's okay, I'll let it slide this time.

-Wally is really starting to notice and I think enjoy you. He loves to give you kisses! You never cry when he does, just look back at him and smile!

-You still LOVE your swing! I think you are enjoying it more now than you ever have.

Your daddy and I are still so smitten over you! We love you more and more each day!